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I bought new shoes! It's the PUMA Exotic Basketball Platform. My feet looks like I'll have shiny reptile skin all over but it's okay cuz it's dopeee. In the beginning I wanted to buy the Adidas EQT but the design I wanted was not in Malaysia and the ones available looked took sporty-ish. Though it's trendy these days to wear sneaks (which I have been doing since I was 10 years old pffft *flipstudung*) My first pair that I remembered was a Wimbledon sneaks. White with pink detailing. Wore it till it wore out and my next pair were was a pair or Reeboks, then a Puma. Then my Adidas obsession started - and being loyal to Adidas I never bought a pair of Nikes cuz it's blasphemy. Nowadays the Adidas NMD is in but I feel like my feet will look weird if I wore it. Tempted to buy a pair just for the heck of it but I'm gonna see if I can get something rare in Japan. Well rare to be found here in Malaysia but normal in Japan. Either that or a pair of EQT with the design I wanted.
I don't pride myself as an avid collector of things. I just love what I love.
I need new clothes though, but being a chunky girl it's a bit hard. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS TRIP TO JAPAN AND JOGJA. GAWD. But I've decided to wear my Boosts in Yogja. There's gonna be trips into water and stuff. Loads of walking. Terrain wise, I wouldn't wear my beloved new Puma to Jogja.
Life's okay. I saw Aleea yesterday, we had lunch, watched a movie and caught up. It's always good to see her, my soul sister. Without Noys though, cuz Noys' is in Taiping for a wedding. No offence or anything but I'm the type when my friends have married I find it hard to reach out to them for anything. Out of respect for their new responsibilities, I don't want to make it a burden for them to keep up with our friendship - we understand that about each other I guess. At the age of 27, I still don't feel like settling down, or maybe cuz I haven't met the one yet. I think at this point I am too wary of men, as I ended up being disappointed by them too much. I thought I the guys I met who were dedicated to their wives were such admirable men, but in the end I heard stories about them which caused me to be even more wary. How even a guy who claims to be madly in love with girl A would temporarily forgets all about it when girl B strips off her clothing and asks him to fuck him and he gladly obliges. What happens to girl A though? She doesn't know. As a third party I can only hate the guy, and feels sad for girl A. But they are married now, and happy. Who am I to feel anything or say anything when I'm just an observer in everyone's lives? It does led me to become more wary of men and their motives. If anything, I feel scared to trust.
Maybe that's why I'm okay being single like this. My heart feels like it's still closed off to anyone, and I'm okay with it. I'm healing, I tell myself. I'm not ready to jump into something again.
Work has been meh lately. I'm starting to feel tired again, but for the different reasons. Anyway my plan is to keep up for 2 years at least. Learn as much as I can while I'm at it.
I should sleep soon. It's almost 1.
I bought new shoes! It's the PUMA Exotic Basketball Platform. My feet looks like I'll have shiny reptile skin all over but it's okay cuz it's dopeee. In the beginning I wanted to buy the Adidas EQT but the design I wanted was not in Malaysia and the ones available looked took sporty-ish. Though it's trendy these days to wear sneaks (which I have been doing since I was 10 years old pffft *flipstudung*) My first pair that I remembered was a Wimbledon sneaks. White with pink detailing. Wore it till it wore out and my next pair were was a pair or Reeboks, then a Puma. Then my Adidas obsession started - and being loyal to Adidas I never bought a pair of Nikes cuz it's blasphemy. Nowadays the Adidas NMD is in but I feel like my feet will look weird if I wore it. Tempted to buy a pair just for the heck of it but I'm gonna see if I can get something rare in Japan. Well rare to be found here in Malaysia but normal in Japan. Either that or a pair of EQT with the design I wanted.
I don't pride myself as an avid collector of things. I just love what I love.
I need new clothes though, but being a chunky girl it's a bit hard. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS TRIP TO JAPAN AND JOGJA. GAWD. But I've decided to wear my Boosts in Yogja. There's gonna be trips into water and stuff. Loads of walking. Terrain wise, I wouldn't wear my beloved new Puma to Jogja.
Life's okay. I saw Aleea yesterday, we had lunch, watched a movie and caught up. It's always good to see her, my soul sister. Without Noys though, cuz Noys' is in Taiping for a wedding. No offence or anything but I'm the type when my friends have married I find it hard to reach out to them for anything. Out of respect for their new responsibilities, I don't want to make it a burden for them to keep up with our friendship - we understand that about each other I guess. At the age of 27, I still don't feel like settling down, or maybe cuz I haven't met the one yet. I think at this point I am too wary of men, as I ended up being disappointed by them too much. I thought I the guys I met who were dedicated to their wives were such admirable men, but in the end I heard stories about them which caused me to be even more wary. How even a guy who claims to be madly in love with girl A would temporarily forgets all about it when girl B strips off her clothing and asks him to fuck him and he gladly obliges. What happens to girl A though? She doesn't know. As a third party I can only hate the guy, and feels sad for girl A. But they are married now, and happy. Who am I to feel anything or say anything when I'm just an observer in everyone's lives? It does led me to become more wary of men and their motives. If anything, I feel scared to trust.
Maybe that's why I'm okay being single like this. My heart feels like it's still closed off to anyone, and I'm okay with it. I'm healing, I tell myself. I'm not ready to jump into something again.
Work has been meh lately. I'm starting to feel tired again, but for the different reasons. Anyway my plan is to keep up for 2 years at least. Learn as much as I can while I'm at it.
I should sleep soon. It's almost 1.
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