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It's currently the first of January 2018, andddd around 38 minutes to the second of January of 2018 and I just couldn't sleep cuz I had a power nap of sorts in the evening and that usually screws up my night sleeping schedule, but I will be able to wake up normally in the morning, so, yeah.
Unimportant opening.
Anyway I couldn't go to sleep without verbally summarizing my year, which I think is the most epic year to-date in my life so far. As I kept saying on my instagram, 2017 was LIT.
Okay to start it off, let's go back to the last quarter of 2016 - when I was going thru a major shitty time. I was about to be engaged to this guy, let's name him K, but then shit happens and we broke-up and went our separate ways. Then Owen died, bitten by a stray dog. Owen, was probably the last cat of my current life. I loved him, we slept together everyday, we prayed together everyday and he was somehow always there when I was down. Seriously. I could be sad or stressed out and was lying on the bed and he would suddenly march in and jumped on me as if telling me, its ok human, I'm here, I love you. So when he died, I was just....crazy heartbroken.
I was in a very bad state of mind, and kinda just threw myself into work at the time. Thankfully there was a shitload to do (until now tho) and it took my mind off of things and helped me slowly recover and get back on my feet. It was around after my birthday I guess (my birthday is on the last day of the year, so go figure) and I decided 2017 is going to be the year where I focus on ME. I wasn't going to hold back and the first thing I did was book me a flight to Osaka, Japan, with mom and sis.
Fast forward a few months and the three of us was on the plane to Japan! It was damn exhilarating, I'm telling you. Even though I can say I've lived in Japan when I was small, there was a limit to what I wanted and can do. Heck, I didn't even know what I can do at the time, because I feel in love with Japan AFTER I came back. I was around 10 years old at the time, so what did you expect this 10 year old to do in life? She just went to school, made friends, had family time, eat and enjoyed life day by day. We were in Osaka for 3 days, and then took the Shinkansen to Kyoto. I am telling you now, it was not enough. 3 days each in each region was NOT enough for me to cover everything. I wish to go again this year, and spend a lot more time.
This was where I bought my first NMD's and just fell in love and went YOLO-ed and ended up with 3 pairs just this year. (Don't ask me how much it all encompasses to)
Came back, and within weeks, managed to plan out another trip to Yogyakarta with Jie, Zera, Mel and Sangeeta. Bam, that WAS not in my year itinerary but heck, I wanted to just travel everywhere that year and I went YOLO and leggo. It was another epic journey. We went during Wesak and Jogja being a region where most of the people are Buddhist, so the holiday was a huge deal. Our supir (driver) managed to get us tickets to join the lantern releasing at THE Borobudur Temple. The crowd was crazy packed and gosh we were stuck in a damn human tsunami but it was worth it to see what I felt one of the most beautiful rituals in the world. As people release the countless of lanterns laced with their earnest wishes, the lights float up and gradually become what seemed likes small fireflies in the darkened sky. I climbed the Borobudur later the next day, and even went on a crazy gondola ride across the raging sea at Timang Beach. Leap of faith much? YES. I was half - thinking, if I died here, it was my fate to do so. Food, was amazing and what more can I say about my travel companions but not the best I've had. Fucking love these girls to bits. Oh yeah, and that epic jeep ride up Mt. Merapi? Priceless.
Then it was Ramadhan, and Syawal. We had the celebration in Kedah this year, and...well, I'd be honest with you and say I never really got along well with them Kedah peeps, and I have my reasons I guess. It was a kinda a non-event thing for me. Mostly me and my siblings hung out at malls or cafes ( as if we didn't hang out at enuff back home ) or I took one of my other cousins who was into photography as me and we kinda just went for a photowalk. I had tons of the pretty street of Alor Star which I never posted anywhere cuz the timing was never right. So, yeah.
Then, somehow on a whim after talking with my sis (on how break-ups doesn't have to mean you can't contact each other again, or hate the other person and we parted ways with mutual feelings anyway so yeah why don't you contact him again sis since you always felt that it was a shit thing that I had to lose a friend over this) I will admit, even after all the shit, K is someone I truly love and cherish. Partly because back in high school and early uni-days I was really depressed and was prone to self-harm and he helped me a lot in overcoming my depression (tho he might not know this in detail) so I just couldn't hate him or not have him in my life. It's just this feeling I have. I don't know about him though. He might have different thoughts, but it's okay. Another part is maybe just because we shared a lot of ourselves after all these years, that it became ingrained in both of us. I read a saying once, how once you truly have someone's heart, they never really go away.
Anyway I called him up and we're friends again. It started off awkwardly but it's a bit better now. So if you see a Malay guy in my social feed sometimes, he's probably one of them.
Sometime in the middle here before I went to Korea I sprained my left ankle playing at JumpStreet.
Moving forward, I think it was around May or June, me and Aleea made plans to go to Korea. Bam, September came and we flew and WE HAD A BLAST. My first time staying at a guesthouse (it was cool as heck) and found out I'm not that scared of dogs after all. There was this cute doggie named Jelly at the guesthouse and he was the gentlest animal ever and well, I think I will be okay around dogs. Korea was lit, and we went literally everywhere we could. Had major delish foods, saw amazing architecture, hung out like a local, wore a damn hanbok around and acted as if we were princesses and fueled our kpop love HAHAHAHA. Still think there are tons of places we couldn't cover and have to come back sometime in he future.
All that travelling kinda went by in a flash.
Rewind back to earlier in the year, I was part of the support team at work, which was when I had to deal with clients and system issues directly and when I came back from Korea they told me I'll be transferred to the project team. Well, to be honest my working schedule was pretty much....bad. When there are issues, we have to come to work a bit earlier than usual, perhaps around 8 or 830, but then we go back super late almost everyday - around 10PM on average - which by that time were are hungry and always ate late. Of course when I'm stress I eat sweets and desserts so that did not help. Basically to protect my mental health I sort of forgot about my physical health. So after around a year plus...I ended up with a few health problems i.e. hypertension, sleep apnea, acid reflux just to name a few.
Which leads to tomorrow where I am going for pre-operation for a sleeve gastrectomy on my stomach - which hopefully will help to reduce a ton of my health complications. Mom is helping me to pay my way through as the surgery and hospital bills won't be cheap. So I guess I won't be travelling much this year. Perhaps one place will be okay. I hope to move forward in life too, maybe get a new job which allows me to take care of myself better, or maybe other things. I do have to start planning things though. There is no harm in planning. If God allows it, then my plans will go through InsyaAllah.
AM SUPER GRATEFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE WITH ME, LIFTING ME UP WHEN I'M DOWN, AND PARTIED WITH ME WHEN I'M UP
I MUCHO LOVE ALL OF YOU <3
To wrap it up, 2017 was the year where I focused on my mental health but physically I'm pretty screwed up. I have no regrets though. This year, I need to be more balanced. Yep, the theme will have to be BALANCE.
I will try to start blogging more this year. XD
Mucho love,
Roro X
It's currently the first of January 2018, andddd around 38 minutes to the second of January of 2018 and I just couldn't sleep cuz I had a power nap of sorts in the evening and that usually screws up my night sleeping schedule, but I will be able to wake up normally in the morning, so, yeah.
Unimportant opening.
Anyway I couldn't go to sleep without verbally summarizing my year, which I think is the most epic year to-date in my life so far. As I kept saying on my instagram, 2017 was LIT.
Okay to start it off, let's go back to the last quarter of 2016 - when I was going thru a major shitty time. I was about to be engaged to this guy, let's name him K, but then shit happens and we broke-up and went our separate ways. Then Owen died, bitten by a stray dog. Owen, was probably the last cat of my current life. I loved him, we slept together everyday, we prayed together everyday and he was somehow always there when I was down. Seriously. I could be sad or stressed out and was lying on the bed and he would suddenly march in and jumped on me as if telling me, its ok human, I'm here, I love you. So when he died, I was just....crazy heartbroken.
I was in a very bad state of mind, and kinda just threw myself into work at the time. Thankfully there was a shitload to do (until now tho) and it took my mind off of things and helped me slowly recover and get back on my feet. It was around after my birthday I guess (my birthday is on the last day of the year, so go figure) and I decided 2017 is going to be the year where I focus on ME. I wasn't going to hold back and the first thing I did was book me a flight to Osaka, Japan, with mom and sis.
Fast forward a few months and the three of us was on the plane to Japan! It was damn exhilarating, I'm telling you. Even though I can say I've lived in Japan when I was small, there was a limit to what I wanted and can do. Heck, I didn't even know what I can do at the time, because I feel in love with Japan AFTER I came back. I was around 10 years old at the time, so what did you expect this 10 year old to do in life? She just went to school, made friends, had family time, eat and enjoyed life day by day. We were in Osaka for 3 days, and then took the Shinkansen to Kyoto. I am telling you now, it was not enough. 3 days each in each region was NOT enough for me to cover everything. I wish to go again this year, and spend a lot more time.
This was where I bought my first NMD's and just fell in love and went YOLO-ed and ended up with 3 pairs just this year. (Don't ask me how much it all encompasses to)
Came back, and within weeks, managed to plan out another trip to Yogyakarta with Jie, Zera, Mel and Sangeeta. Bam, that WAS not in my year itinerary but heck, I wanted to just travel everywhere that year and I went YOLO and leggo. It was another epic journey. We went during Wesak and Jogja being a region where most of the people are Buddhist, so the holiday was a huge deal. Our supir (driver) managed to get us tickets to join the lantern releasing at THE Borobudur Temple. The crowd was crazy packed and gosh we were stuck in a damn human tsunami but it was worth it to see what I felt one of the most beautiful rituals in the world. As people release the countless of lanterns laced with their earnest wishes, the lights float up and gradually become what seemed likes small fireflies in the darkened sky. I climbed the Borobudur later the next day, and even went on a crazy gondola ride across the raging sea at Timang Beach. Leap of faith much? YES. I was half - thinking, if I died here, it was my fate to do so. Food, was amazing and what more can I say about my travel companions but not the best I've had. Fucking love these girls to bits. Oh yeah, and that epic jeep ride up Mt. Merapi? Priceless.
Then it was Ramadhan, and Syawal. We had the celebration in Kedah this year, and...well, I'd be honest with you and say I never really got along well with them Kedah peeps, and I have my reasons I guess. It was a kinda a non-event thing for me. Mostly me and my siblings hung out at malls or cafes ( as if we didn't hang out at enuff back home ) or I took one of my other cousins who was into photography as me and we kinda just went for a photowalk. I had tons of the pretty street of Alor Star which I never posted anywhere cuz the timing was never right. So, yeah.
Then, somehow on a whim after talking with my sis (on how break-ups doesn't have to mean you can't contact each other again, or hate the other person and we parted ways with mutual feelings anyway so yeah why don't you contact him again sis since you always felt that it was a shit thing that I had to lose a friend over this) I will admit, even after all the shit, K is someone I truly love and cherish. Partly because back in high school and early uni-days I was really depressed and was prone to self-harm and he helped me a lot in overcoming my depression (tho he might not know this in detail) so I just couldn't hate him or not have him in my life. It's just this feeling I have. I don't know about him though. He might have different thoughts, but it's okay. Another part is maybe just because we shared a lot of ourselves after all these years, that it became ingrained in both of us. I read a saying once, how once you truly have someone's heart, they never really go away.
Anyway I called him up and we're friends again. It started off awkwardly but it's a bit better now. So if you see a Malay guy in my social feed sometimes, he's probably one of them.
Sometime in the middle here before I went to Korea I sprained my left ankle playing at JumpStreet.
Moving forward, I think it was around May or June, me and Aleea made plans to go to Korea. Bam, September came and we flew and WE HAD A BLAST. My first time staying at a guesthouse (it was cool as heck) and found out I'm not that scared of dogs after all. There was this cute doggie named Jelly at the guesthouse and he was the gentlest animal ever and well, I think I will be okay around dogs. Korea was lit, and we went literally everywhere we could. Had major delish foods, saw amazing architecture, hung out like a local, wore a damn hanbok around and acted as if we were princesses and fueled our kpop love HAHAHAHA. Still think there are tons of places we couldn't cover and have to come back sometime in he future.
All that travelling kinda went by in a flash.
Rewind back to earlier in the year, I was part of the support team at work, which was when I had to deal with clients and system issues directly and when I came back from Korea they told me I'll be transferred to the project team. Well, to be honest my working schedule was pretty much....bad. When there are issues, we have to come to work a bit earlier than usual, perhaps around 8 or 830, but then we go back super late almost everyday - around 10PM on average - which by that time were are hungry and always ate late. Of course when I'm stress I eat sweets and desserts so that did not help. Basically to protect my mental health I sort of forgot about my physical health. So after around a year plus...I ended up with a few health problems i.e. hypertension, sleep apnea, acid reflux just to name a few.
Which leads to tomorrow where I am going for pre-operation for a sleeve gastrectomy on my stomach - which hopefully will help to reduce a ton of my health complications. Mom is helping me to pay my way through as the surgery and hospital bills won't be cheap. So I guess I won't be travelling much this year. Perhaps one place will be okay. I hope to move forward in life too, maybe get a new job which allows me to take care of myself better, or maybe other things. I do have to start planning things though. There is no harm in planning. If God allows it, then my plans will go through InsyaAllah.
AM SUPER GRATEFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE WITH ME, LIFTING ME UP WHEN I'M DOWN, AND PARTIED WITH ME WHEN I'M UP
I MUCHO LOVE ALL OF YOU <3
To wrap it up, 2017 was the year where I focused on my mental health but physically I'm pretty screwed up. I have no regrets though. This year, I need to be more balanced. Yep, the theme will have to be BALANCE.
I will try to start blogging more this year. XD
Mucho love,
Roro X
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