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To start off, I started writing a blog again because I felt like my English was getting pretty rusty. I used to read a lot, but nowadays I hardly do, and I hardly use proper English in my daily conversations either. Sometimes I can't even string words to make my mails make sense, it was that bad.
I was feeling the Monday blues really badly today. Usually at 9AM I'll be bustling out of the house to my car but today I was just sitting on the sofa looking at Brownie who was sleeping at my feet and wishing I was her. She's so content sleeping on mom's expensive sofa and not giving a fuck. I like it, not giving a fuck, and maybe that's why I like cats. They DON'T give a fuck but when they do, you know it's precious. Okay maybe I'm being bias towards cats because I like cats, but it's not like I can keep a dog around with me despite how much I find them adorable. Anyway I still managed to reach work around 10AM somehow and started doing this and that.
Had a good heart to heart sorta talk tonight with a good friend of mine on his current situation - mostly romantically. He felt like he wanted to be alone. Surprisingly I read back my blog post yesterday and how I was feeling the same thing. Just tired of all the shit and wanting to be comfy by myself, not giving a fuck. Thing is, my friend is a nice person, not the type to abandon someone else for the sake of his own sanity.
You'll break one day, and it's okay to be selfish sometimes.
I told him I want him to be happy. I didn't want to see him destroying himself for the sake of other's who can't be grateful to have him. You know, relationships are all good, but it's important to find a good balance between being totally sacrificial just because you are supposed to be in love with that person. Plus, once you start questioning your own feelings towards the other person, you're already in trouble. Funny enough, quite a few of my friends have told me this same thing in the last few days. 'I don't know anymore, what I'm feeling towards him/her and I don't know what to do to keep this going.' or 'I'm just going with the flow'. What saddens me the most is that when they told me this, they had a sad face on. I hated it. I wanted to hug them and tell them it'll workout, just so that they'll cheer up. Of course I want my friends to be happy with whoever they re with, because I know how sad it is to feel unhappy with the one you are currently with. Working it out is always an option but it needs cooperation and the willingness to understand and accept each other. Try to think again what made you first step into this relationship. Why it should be ended, or if in the long run you'd see them with you still. Why are you having these thoughts too, jot them down. Discuss.
I'm staying clear away from relationships or anything of the likes with men at the moment. Right now I do have a crush on someone but I think it's more towards admiration, rather than a crush.
I rather have the new Honda Civic. HEHE.
To start off, I started writing a blog again because I felt like my English was getting pretty rusty. I used to read a lot, but nowadays I hardly do, and I hardly use proper English in my daily conversations either. Sometimes I can't even string words to make my mails make sense, it was that bad.
I was feeling the Monday blues really badly today. Usually at 9AM I'll be bustling out of the house to my car but today I was just sitting on the sofa looking at Brownie who was sleeping at my feet and wishing I was her. She's so content sleeping on mom's expensive sofa and not giving a fuck. I like it, not giving a fuck, and maybe that's why I like cats. They DON'T give a fuck but when they do, you know it's precious. Okay maybe I'm being bias towards cats because I like cats, but it's not like I can keep a dog around with me despite how much I find them adorable. Anyway I still managed to reach work around 10AM somehow and started doing this and that.
Had a good heart to heart sorta talk tonight with a good friend of mine on his current situation - mostly romantically. He felt like he wanted to be alone. Surprisingly I read back my blog post yesterday and how I was feeling the same thing. Just tired of all the shit and wanting to be comfy by myself, not giving a fuck. Thing is, my friend is a nice person, not the type to abandon someone else for the sake of his own sanity.
You'll break one day, and it's okay to be selfish sometimes.
I told him I want him to be happy. I didn't want to see him destroying himself for the sake of other's who can't be grateful to have him. You know, relationships are all good, but it's important to find a good balance between being totally sacrificial just because you are supposed to be in love with that person. Plus, once you start questioning your own feelings towards the other person, you're already in trouble. Funny enough, quite a few of my friends have told me this same thing in the last few days. 'I don't know anymore, what I'm feeling towards him/her and I don't know what to do to keep this going.' or 'I'm just going with the flow'. What saddens me the most is that when they told me this, they had a sad face on. I hated it. I wanted to hug them and tell them it'll workout, just so that they'll cheer up. Of course I want my friends to be happy with whoever they re with, because I know how sad it is to feel unhappy with the one you are currently with. Working it out is always an option but it needs cooperation and the willingness to understand and accept each other. Try to think again what made you first step into this relationship. Why it should be ended, or if in the long run you'd see them with you still. Why are you having these thoughts too, jot them down. Discuss.
I'm staying clear away from relationships or anything of the likes with men at the moment. Right now I do have a crush on someone but I think it's more towards admiration, rather than a crush.
I rather have the new Honda Civic. HEHE.
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